Feeling kind of irrational at the moment. Feeling confused.
Why do family feel that they can walk all over me when I clearly don’t let anyone use me as a doormat? Why do they feel they can talk so much shit and then just walk away? Without explanation, just “poof”. Why do they act as if they care, and then without rhyme or reason just walk out the imaginary door that’s in my heart? And WHY do I waste time and energy on these people? Why do I LET them get to me? Oh, it must be the kids, it must be their tender hearts I’m protecting. It must be that I don’t want to feel the pain, and the aggravation of it all. Ya know? Mean people suck. Tired of it. Tired of bending over backwards making sure my girls get where they need to be, to hang with other cousins and aunts and uncles JUST to be snubbed when I walk in the door.
Who gives a shit I’m different? You’re not perfect! We are ALL different. Who cares?! I don’t care what you do or who you are doing… as long as you’re happy. Ya know? So what I’m bipolar… you’re a dick. This isn’t me being judgmental. This is me being honest. If you have an issue with me, tell ME. Quit being lame and just walking away…. Who does that?! I’ll tell you who. People that SAY they ‘get it” that they can deal with the fact you’re not normal… they are understanding. In truth, they are all the same. Jerks who want what they want, yet aren’t satisfied with you as you are. I say over n out… I don’t need it, I don’t want to make time for it. Because its petty. But not petty enough to NOT hurt my heart. That feeling of being rejected is sucky. I’m just saying. So, I’m don’t whining for now. I was just needing to vent…
Stay You! It’s Awesome!
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